Wanted to give a shout out to my readers in India! Guys I was so excited when I seen this yesterday. Really what I am writing has been read in India, and I couldn’t be more thrilled that my blog has made it around the world. 😍
Can anyone else relate to me the morning… I woke up on time to get ready for my day, I left the house on time so I can get to work. Then Bam wouldn’t you know it Traffic Glore!! But wait I was on time, and now I will be late for work!! The morning I had to giggle at myself because I knew the moment I seen traffic my old self would of let that sight of traffic ruin my day, or at least my morning. My old self would have not been able to brush off the minor traffic jam. This leads me to my topic the morning on your past does not define you. It is really nice when other people remind you that “you my friend are loved” When I am winning or when I am failing miserable I have in my circle people who love me and tell me so daily. I usually don’t hop on every good idea I have, partly because my old self was afraid of failure, partly because I am not a sales person and most of my so called “good ideas” involve some sort of sales scheme. But last night I came to the realization I don’t pursue good ideas because quite frankly its hard to put yourself out there. Truly expose yourself to the community you live in, work in, play in, and for me if I fail then part of me feels like I am failing my entire community.
I do realize my whole realization may be rash and I can’t put the world on my shoulders like that. But having my realization shown to me this way, made me see I no longer place myself with failing my community. I no longer put myself in that place where I am going to fail. I don’t resonate with that person anymore. Failing at something does not make you a failure, it leads us to try new things, and that my friends is Brave. Thinking back on my life and the countless ways I failed is not fun for me, but the amount of knowledge that came from those experiences will stay with me my entire life. I learned in my early 20’s I didn’t fit the mold of the so called “norm” that was happening around me. My early 20’s showed me a lot of heart ache, a lot of worry, guilt for not meeting standards, goals that some of my close friends were meeting. Looking back now I compared myself WAY to much, why was I not happily married, why was I not having babies, why was I not succeeding in college, dang it why was I not enjoying epic nights out!! My reality was I was overweight, married but not happily, consumed with stuff I couldn’t afford, and the way this ended for me was married and bankrupt by the time I was 25, guys I lost everything material things could offer. This time of my life I wasn’t living, I didn’t see the bigger picture, I had no faith, no hope in my future, but man when I failed did I fail. The only constant in my life at that time was my job, and man was I good at my job. But shortly after my epic life fail, my job life fell too. I was fired. Wait! You can’t fire me I am one of your top producers, I had my dress for the Christmas party. I invested so much time into your company. Well my friends none of my good deeds saved my job that day, none of my good deeds I did for that company saved my pride that day either. At this time in my life I didn’t have children, although I was in a new found relationship with my now husband he knew just as well as I did I was not happy. It would take a lot of work for me to get out of my “funk”. Looking back in my time of chaos this was a blessing, this was a moment for me when god showed up and I had no idea. I ended up losing my job in November that year, I learned to pick myself up, and to quit feeling sorry for my situation. The moment I picked myself up from the pits did I find out I was pregnant, and that folks is where my journey all started.
You my friend are not defined by your past, by your failures, by your career, by what others think of you. You don’t have to live under the weight of comparing yourself or your situation to anyone else. My prayer today is to practice forgiveness, forgiving yourself for your past, forgiving what others did to you in your past. Doing this will help you not only let go of all that negative energy but also allow you to focus on what your future holds for you. Practice what it means to truly live and be thankful in the lord and all his gifts. You got this!!! #Thisismedoinglife